Tuesday, December 27, 2005
Hard to let him go
Driving back home and listening to the 103.5 radio station. "The hardest part of love is let him go...." I think it is so true.
Boxing day
Got up late then went out for lunch. Afternoon met up with my cousin. So many people in downtown, some line-ups in front of some shops! Crazy, it seems that most of things are gone already. Bought some drinking chocolate, mostly window shopping because did not see any that I want. Then met up with my friend and her BF, we four had dinner together. Happy to see those two love birds togehter, just so sweet!
Got home then listened to Pavarotti again. Thinking of something or somebody. Going to sleep soon and call it a day!
Got home then listened to Pavarotti again. Thinking of something or somebody. Going to sleep soon and call it a day!
Monday, December 26, 2005
Moth
Have you ever seen moth chasing the fire? I was wondering why. I guess it loves the beauty of the bright light then just die for it.
What
What I am fighting for? What I am afraid of preventing it from letting it flow? I know I am falling into it; I did; and I do, deeper and deeper every day. I tried to control it, but what I can do now is only let it go of it. I am longing for it, it is not passion only, it is something else. It happened so naturally and inextricably.
Sunday, December 25, 2005
Merry Christmas
Got up late today and did some cleaning and laundry. Had some soup and made some berry shake. Listening to Pavarotti now. Want to be alone, need to be, and think of my life. A friend just asked me out for dinner, but feel a little lazy.
Was I in PMS streak? Am I in a mood to listen to the Opera?
The first time spending my Christmas day alone, as least so far. Merry Christmas!
Was I in PMS streak? Am I in a mood to listen to the Opera?
The first time spending my Christmas day alone, as least so far. Merry Christmas!
Christmas Eve 2005
Had dinner with some friends, then five of us headed to a Catholic church in downtown Vancouver. It is said that it is the biggest Catholic church in Vancouver. We were there around 8:30pm, a friend said that if we were there around 9pm, it might no space,which did not happen this year. There are many people, but still many spaces. The last time I went to a church was 4 or five years ago. I am not Catholic though, but I do believe something, something natural, beautiful; I believe in love:)
A friend said if a non-catholic married a catholic, they could not have a wedding in a catholic church; unless one could pass the course and exam to become a catholic. He was asked to become a catholic before, but he failed the course, not sure if it was his intention. I was thinking, the rule is foolish; but if I have to become a catholic for some reasons, let's say love, I would do.
My ex-BF back to Vancouver and wanted to spend the Christmas eve with me...He told me "I love you, alice" over the phone, I did not respond. I remember that last time he said that over the phone, I almost dropped off my phone and fell off the chair......
Generally speaking, it is a good day, and a good Christmas eve. So far two people asked me if I think 2006 is a good year, I said yes. I believe it will be a good year, many good things will happen in 2006!
A friend said if a non-catholic married a catholic, they could not have a wedding in a catholic church; unless one could pass the course and exam to become a catholic. He was asked to become a catholic before, but he failed the course, not sure if it was his intention. I was thinking, the rule is foolish; but if I have to become a catholic for some reasons, let's say love, I would do.
My ex-BF back to Vancouver and wanted to spend the Christmas eve with me...He told me "I love you, alice" over the phone, I did not respond. I remember that last time he said that over the phone, I almost dropped off my phone and fell off the chair......
Generally speaking, it is a good day, and a good Christmas eve. So far two people asked me if I think 2006 is a good year, I said yes. I believe it will be a good year, many good things will happen in 2006!
Thursday, December 22, 2005
What happened today
Is it still raining? Yes maybe just a little, light rain, could hear that. The fireplace is on, could hear it too. Something is trying to catch me, catch my heart, that is why I am still wide awake?
This morning a coworker took me a picture for his "Me and friends project", because I left the Christmas Party early last Friday, he could not have one, so he wanted to make it up. Then after work, had a birthday party for a female coworker in the environmental chamber with Australian climate-38 DegreeC, hot and humid. It is crazy but fun. Had some Champain, wine and low alchohol wine, turn red:)
Then drove to downtown, the good thing is that no policeman stop me and no accident. Went last minute shopping tonight. Ordered some wrapped chicken in a small shop along Robson, eating while walking down the street with my dear friend, feel happy. It is a good feeling to try that kind of food then eat it on the street, :P. It doesn't happen to me often though, only the third time in 6 years:) Is it something unpredictable? (I like things predictable though, feel comfortable.) Then had some Lotus tea at Starbucks talking.
Got back home, wrapping the gift and then did lingeries laundry, it is hand wash:(
Feel tired, physically and mentally, sleep soon, hope will have a good one.....
This morning a coworker took me a picture for his "Me and friends project", because I left the Christmas Party early last Friday, he could not have one, so he wanted to make it up. Then after work, had a birthday party for a female coworker in the environmental chamber with Australian climate-38 DegreeC, hot and humid. It is crazy but fun. Had some Champain, wine and low alchohol wine, turn red:)
Then drove to downtown, the good thing is that no policeman stop me and no accident. Went last minute shopping tonight. Ordered some wrapped chicken in a small shop along Robson, eating while walking down the street with my dear friend, feel happy. It is a good feeling to try that kind of food then eat it on the street, :P. It doesn't happen to me often though, only the third time in 6 years:) Is it something unpredictable? (I like things predictable though, feel comfortable.) Then had some Lotus tea at Starbucks talking.
Got back home, wrapping the gift and then did lingeries laundry, it is hand wash:(
Feel tired, physically and mentally, sleep soon, hope will have a good one.....
Monday, December 19, 2005
Alone
Woke up in the middle of the night, suddenly feel alone... Then called in a sick this morning, want to be alone:) Checking emails and writing card for dear friend. Feel better.
Thinking about the time when I was still a student, thinking about a dear friend from high school. Thinking about the Trip to Fragrant Hill. It is such a nice and sweet feeling. That warm feelings make me smile.
Thinking about the time when I was still a student, thinking about a dear friend from high school. Thinking about the Trip to Fragrant Hill. It is such a nice and sweet feeling. That warm feelings make me smile.
Sunday, December 18, 2005
Happiness
Happiness is totally a personal thing, it is all about how you feel about things that make you happy. When I am upset, I tell myself why I should punish myself by somebody else's fault? Thinking this way makes me feel better, at least a little better.
Yes, I was happy, most of the time, or try to be happy most of the time. I feel great sometimes, however at the same time, feel so bad for somethings for some reasons recently. Why I should be? We have many ways living this life, but I am sure it is not the way.
I love purity and complete. I want to love without any reservation. This will make me happy!
Yes, I was happy, most of the time, or try to be happy most of the time. I feel great sometimes, however at the same time, feel so bad for somethings for some reasons recently. Why I should be? We have many ways living this life, but I am sure it is not the way.
I love purity and complete. I want to love without any reservation. This will make me happy!
A day
On my way to Grouse Mountain this morning, there was a terrible car accident, which was a very bad crash. I was thinking how horrible it was just before Christmas! Had to use another road. Then just before going toward Lion's gate bridge, two policemen blocked the road. I was in a hurry and thinking what it is wrong this moring! Crap! Just when I passed the blocked road, the guy was collecting the barrier, I shouted out, "what happened?" The policemen gave me a helpless and confused look. I suspect they misunderstood the order or something.
Then I took the Gondola to the top of the Grouse Mt. You know what happened? The Gondola just stopped in the middle of the ride, hanging on the wire, at an altitude of 1200ft, swinging; then moved a little, then stopped again. I was scared it falling down to the cliffs, I told another instructor that I do not want to die yet, especially before Christmas; and I was thinking I still have somethings to do...
The girl said that she takes the ride more than 500 times, this although is unusual, it happened. Then of course, I was safe there, otherwise, I would not be able to sit here writing:)
Then I took the Gondola to the top of the Grouse Mt. You know what happened? The Gondola just stopped in the middle of the ride, hanging on the wire, at an altitude of 1200ft, swinging; then moved a little, then stopped again. I was scared it falling down to the cliffs, I told another instructor that I do not want to die yet, especially before Christmas; and I was thinking I still have somethings to do...
The girl said that she takes the ride more than 500 times, this although is unusual, it happened. Then of course, I was safe there, otherwise, I would not be able to sit here writing:)
Saturday, December 17, 2005
King Kong
Watched this movie recently. MG, I never cried so badly when watching a movie, I did cry sometimes, but this time, just could not help.
It is such a touching movie, the love of the beast could shake the mountain. The love, unconditional and desperate...The beast holds the beauty in his hand as if she is the whole world for him. He is so satisfied being with her. Sitting in his hand, watching the sunset with him together, the girl was sleeping in his arms feeling so safe. "Beautiful", not only the sunset and the view, but also the LOVE. It is beautiful!
The captured beast run away to a park holding her in his hand, sliding or dancing on the surface of the frozen pond, so happy, both! I wished it could be forever, and time could stop! I wished the girl just stay in the jungle with him, and nobody can find them, live happily ever after, like all the fairy tales.
Human beings do not know what they are doing and where their position is sometimes, but they thought they knew everything. They creat troubles for others, destroy and make troubles for themselves. Shit! Sad movies make me cry!
"It is not airplane, it is the beautity kills the beast." Does love kill?
It is such a touching movie, the love of the beast could shake the mountain. The love, unconditional and desperate...The beast holds the beauty in his hand as if she is the whole world for him. He is so satisfied being with her. Sitting in his hand, watching the sunset with him together, the girl was sleeping in his arms feeling so safe. "Beautiful", not only the sunset and the view, but also the LOVE. It is beautiful!
The captured beast run away to a park holding her in his hand, sliding or dancing on the surface of the frozen pond, so happy, both! I wished it could be forever, and time could stop! I wished the girl just stay in the jungle with him, and nobody can find them, live happily ever after, like all the fairy tales.
Human beings do not know what they are doing and where their position is sometimes, but they thought they knew everything. They creat troubles for others, destroy and make troubles for themselves. Shit! Sad movies make me cry!
"It is not airplane, it is the beautity kills the beast." Does love kill?
Friday, December 16, 2005
The most romantic thing
This is a title of a song.
Sitting on the carpet, back by back
Talking about wishes and listening to the music
You hope I will be more gentle
I hope you put me in your heart;
You say you want to give me a most romantic deam
Thank me for helping you find the heaven
No matter how long it takes to achieve
As long as I say, you will never foget;
The most romantic thing I can think of
is to get old with you together
Until we are too old to go anywhere
You still hold me as precious baby in your hands
Sitting on the carpet, back by back
Talking about wishes and listening to the music
You hope I will be more gentle
I hope you put me in your heart;
You say you want to give me a most romantic deam
Thank me for helping you find the heaven
No matter how long it takes to achieve
As long as I say, you will never foget;
The most romantic thing I can think of
is to get old with you together
Until we are too old to go anywhere
You still hold me as precious baby in your hands
Enjoy the life
Life is short, which is what everybody knows. I am quite occupied by the idea of enjoying the life. Enjoying the life is what I have been telling myself. Perhaps many people think the same too, but how to enjoy the life is another thing and differs from different people and their perspectives and attitude for life.
Talking to a dear friend recently and happy to know he is doing pretty well and satisfied with what he has. Could feel the peace of his heart. Imagine how he looks like now, after all, have not seen him for many years already! Told him before that I am always moved when seeing old couple still holding hand together, and got an old couple doll from him not long after that.....The life he is living is what I am lusting for......
The dream I ever had seems so far away from me, although I know it is still in my heart. Simple life, simple pleasure, close to the nature, traveling with the dear one, see the world together, get old together, holding hands...I have a thing with holding hands, it is my weakness:)
Active body and peaceful mind! Enjoy the life!
Talking to a dear friend recently and happy to know he is doing pretty well and satisfied with what he has. Could feel the peace of his heart. Imagine how he looks like now, after all, have not seen him for many years already! Told him before that I am always moved when seeing old couple still holding hand together, and got an old couple doll from him not long after that.....The life he is living is what I am lusting for......
The dream I ever had seems so far away from me, although I know it is still in my heart. Simple life, simple pleasure, close to the nature, traveling with the dear one, see the world together, get old together, holding hands...I have a thing with holding hands, it is my weakness:)
Active body and peaceful mind! Enjoy the life!
Monday, December 12, 2005
Shopping
I created a shopping list for Christmas then started last weekend. Sometimes it is easy shopping for somebody, sometimes hard. For dear friends, it is ok, you know what they like, and you know whatever you buy, they will like it; for some, it is a little difficult.
Bought some already so far, still looking for something else, Ugh, forgot to buy the cards, better get some by Wednesday...Otherwise, too late. Also still need at least two days for shopping. So busy before the holiday!
Argh!
Bought some already so far, still looking for something else, Ugh, forgot to buy the cards, better get some by Wednesday...Otherwise, too late. Also still need at least two days for shopping. So busy before the holiday!
Argh!
Volunteering
Went up Grouse Mt. Sunday morning. *Shit* (sorry for the word.) Had to get up early, I so wanted to sleep more, oh, warm under the blanket, cozy....
But had to get to Gondola at the Grouse at 10am. I am volunteering to teach some disabled people skiing, which is my second year. Last year, I was with sit-skiing and drop-in program. This year, I started with drop-in this December, which is very early.
The student is a hearing impaired young adult, he was doing pretty well first day this year on the slope. It was very hot up there, 9+ degree C. Wow, so hot! Everything went well except he lost his hat:( He could do the parallel skiing, or trying to do that now. We planned to go to the other green or blue run next Sunday.
It is really a good feeling to see those people enjoy the skiing and smile. So getting up early on Sunday is worthy it!
But had to get to Gondola at the Grouse at 10am. I am volunteering to teach some disabled people skiing, which is my second year. Last year, I was with sit-skiing and drop-in program. This year, I started with drop-in this December, which is very early.
The student is a hearing impaired young adult, he was doing pretty well first day this year on the slope. It was very hot up there, 9+ degree C. Wow, so hot! Everything went well except he lost his hat:( He could do the parallel skiing, or trying to do that now. We planned to go to the other green or blue run next Sunday.
It is really a good feeling to see those people enjoy the skiing and smile. So getting up early on Sunday is worthy it!
Saturday, December 10, 2005
Biological clock
Tonight a friend called and wanted to take me for hot chocolate. He said that after skiing, hot chocolate helps me sleep well.
I had a hot tub and then had some hot chocolate with him. He talked about the biological clock of women, yes, not a welcome topic for women, but very reasonable. According to his logic, I better have kids soon. Uh! It is second time he mentioned that, I asked him "what is wrong with you?"
I was laughing and to appreciate his kind reminder, I said that all right, I would put kids in my plan:)
I had a hot tub and then had some hot chocolate with him. He talked about the biological clock of women, yes, not a welcome topic for women, but very reasonable. According to his logic, I better have kids soon. Uh! It is second time he mentioned that, I asked him "what is wrong with you?"
I was laughing and to appreciate his kind reminder, I said that all right, I would put kids in my plan:)
Expectation
How high your expectation is for life? Compare to the universe, we are nothing, negligible. So our happiness or pain is nothing, is that true? But we are human beings, we care too much about how we feel, what we like, and what we want. We have feelings, even animal has feelings, actually we are animals; so we can feel the pain, we feel happy and we have expectations!
This life time is too short, we might not have enough time to acomplish something, I did not mean only career, I mean things in life...I just feel that I have so many things to do, but not enough time.
I expect that I could sleep until late, but I could not these weekends; although I did enjoy everything I do. I expect that I meet true love this life time; but what if real life meets true love before I do? I expect that you could hold my hands until the end of our lives......
I was told that things take care of themselves and have a way of unfolding and revealing what I least expect. What I could say?
This life time is too short, we might not have enough time to acomplish something, I did not mean only career, I mean things in life...I just feel that I have so many things to do, but not enough time.
I expect that I could sleep until late, but I could not these weekends; although I did enjoy everything I do. I expect that I meet true love this life time; but what if real life meets true love before I do? I expect that you could hold my hands until the end of our lives......
I was told that things take care of themselves and have a way of unfolding and revealing what I least expect. What I could say?
Joke on the lift
Went skiing today. It is such a beautiful day! I took a few pictures using my cell phone which are amazing. The moon was hanging in the sky sharing with the sun, then there is a joke told by friend.
Two blondes were talking, one asked another, "which one is further, the moon or Florida?" The other said, "it is Florida, of course, you can not see Florida from here."
:)
Yes, we can see the moon, but not Florida. Sometimes you feel something is so close, actually it is so far away from you!
Two blondes were talking, one asked another, "which one is further, the moon or Florida?" The other said, "it is Florida, of course, you can not see Florida from here."
:)
Yes, we can see the moon, but not Florida. Sometimes you feel something is so close, actually it is so far away from you!
Thursday, December 08, 2005
How to lose a guy in 10 days
Watched this movie last night, not bad, funny. A guy promised to make a girl love him in 10 days for a deal, but the girl who was picked up at the bar also had a deal with her boss, writing an article about How to lose a guy in 10 days!
So you can imagine, the girl did whatever she could to piss the guy off and tried hard to push him away, pink things, baby talk; while the guy tried hard to make the girl love him.
Of course you also can imagine that finally they fell in love with each other in 10 days! 10 Days!
So you can imagine, the girl did whatever she could to piss the guy off and tried hard to push him away, pink things, baby talk; while the guy tried hard to make the girl love him.
Of course you also can imagine that finally they fell in love with each other in 10 days! 10 Days!
Sunday, December 04, 2005
Thinking of
Went sking yesterday until 9pm, yes, almost whole day! I was so tired and wanted to be tired, thinking that I would have a good sleep after a hot-tub and tea. However, maybe too excited or after such excise, whatever the reason is, I woke up early this morning.
Wow, it is snowing, just notice that, the snow flakes falling down from sky. People say rain is the tear of heaven, then what snow is?
Sitting here watching the falling snow in a Sunday morning and thinking of.....
Wow, it is snowing, just notice that, the snow flakes falling down from sky. People say rain is the tear of heaven, then what snow is?
Sitting here watching the falling snow in a Sunday morning and thinking of.....
Friday, December 02, 2005
Beauty of the life
In this world, not many can find his good half, they are looking for and waiting, but never happen in this life time! If we are lucky enough, we will find each other and be with each other, love each other for the rest of our life time!
People say beauty of the life exists in the tragedy! I do not like this saying, too sad!
People say beauty of the life exists in the tragedy! I do not like this saying, too sad!
Thursday, December 01, 2005
The week
It was a busy week and I feel it pasts so fast until today.
Last weekend, two friends had a bithday party together. It was the first time to see T's Girl friend, she is really cute. I like her and looked at her a lot, my friend was kidding me why I looked at the girl too much. It is strange, sometimes when I see somebody alike my friend, I will like the one also. The girl is the case, who looks like one of my friends a lot.
Recently I went to Hospital twice, once was visiting a friend's mom, another one is to company a friend who is going to have an operation which was yesterday. Human is like machine, sometimes over running will cause some problems and need get repaired.
I stayed over with my friend last night and talked a lot. I was given a lesson-reality. She thought I am crazy, I think she is right some ways.
It is life, I think happy things and sad things happen all the time. A co-worker is leaving for German tomorrow, it is always sad to see people leaving, but it is part of the life.
Tonight signed one approved insurance paper and paid the first month. Still wait for the another plan approved, but I told the lady, I might cancel it...Not many friends of mine bought insurance, I totally understand. I did not think about that too. Friends said they have no family and kids yet, so seems no need. Although I do not think I need them, I bought it in a very bad mood. Shopping helps when I am in bad mood, maybe! Actually I do not care about what it would be after I die, who cares; I have been believing that enjoy the life.
Had some strawberry shake tonight, which was home-made and really good! But I felt from heaven to hell the same day, so you can imagine how I feel. Two glasses of shake does not help at all:)
Last weekend, two friends had a bithday party together. It was the first time to see T's Girl friend, she is really cute. I like her and looked at her a lot, my friend was kidding me why I looked at the girl too much. It is strange, sometimes when I see somebody alike my friend, I will like the one also. The girl is the case, who looks like one of my friends a lot.
Recently I went to Hospital twice, once was visiting a friend's mom, another one is to company a friend who is going to have an operation which was yesterday. Human is like machine, sometimes over running will cause some problems and need get repaired.
I stayed over with my friend last night and talked a lot. I was given a lesson-reality. She thought I am crazy, I think she is right some ways.
It is life, I think happy things and sad things happen all the time. A co-worker is leaving for German tomorrow, it is always sad to see people leaving, but it is part of the life.
Tonight signed one approved insurance paper and paid the first month. Still wait for the another plan approved, but I told the lady, I might cancel it...Not many friends of mine bought insurance, I totally understand. I did not think about that too. Friends said they have no family and kids yet, so seems no need. Although I do not think I need them, I bought it in a very bad mood. Shopping helps when I am in bad mood, maybe! Actually I do not care about what it would be after I die, who cares; I have been believing that enjoy the life.
Had some strawberry shake tonight, which was home-made and really good! But I felt from heaven to hell the same day, so you can imagine how I feel. Two glasses of shake does not help at all:)
Tuesday, November 22, 2005
Dophin
I like Dophins, they are smart and friendly! It is the Dophin show taken this summer at Vanvouver Aquarium, When Mom was here.
Monday, November 21, 2005
Sail boat
It was taken this summer when I was in the ferry to Vancouver island with Mom. There are some very nice views along the shore. Some small islands, light house, and of course my favorite sail boat!
Saturday at Cypress
It is a picture of Mountain Cypress taken on the lift while I was skiing last Sa
turday. I was foggy in the city but sunny up there. Clouds were very slow that day, that was the only corner of scene of the ocean can be seen. All other views are endless clouds like a huge umbrella covering the city! It was amazing!
turday. I was foggy in the city but sunny up there. Clouds were very slow that day, that was the only corner of scene of the ocean can be seen. All other views are endless clouds like a huge umbrella covering the city! It was amazing!
Fate
If you are the wind, I want to be clouds that follows you wherever you go.
I am that tree in the field standing thousands of years aleady to wait for the appearance of you, waiting for YOU passing and stopping for me.
I am living, I am waiting, I am giving up for you. Beyond the time and space, I mee you and I know I can not let you go. They say it is FATE!
I am that tree in the field standing thousands of years aleady to wait for the appearance of you, waiting for YOU passing and stopping for me.
I am living, I am waiting, I am giving up for you. Beyond the time and space, I mee you and I know I can not let you go. They say it is FATE!
Go away party
Met up with my friend in downtown Sunday, did a little shopping, then we went to Bellaggio at late afternoon. Both were hungry! We had a very early dinner.
Monday, today is her last day at work because she has another better offer. And Tuesday she is going to US for thanksgiving with her BF's family. It is official:) I am happy for her because everything seems going pretty well and she is planning to move in with her BF in January...
I was thinking to go home early, also one of her co-worker will meet her at 7pm. But it is funny, another friend called me and asked me to join the go-away party for her tonight, which she did not know yet! I should have not told her though, otherwise it must be a surprise! It was nice, the only thing is that I was out of my mind sometimes and did not follow their jokes:) Some are absolutely "Listener discretion is advised".
And of course, we ate again after the early dinner and also desert. I did feel that I need something sweet cheering me up!
Monday, today is her last day at work because she has another better offer. And Tuesday she is going to US for thanksgiving with her BF's family. It is official:) I am happy for her because everything seems going pretty well and she is planning to move in with her BF in January...
I was thinking to go home early, also one of her co-worker will meet her at 7pm. But it is funny, another friend called me and asked me to join the go-away party for her tonight, which she did not know yet! I should have not told her though, otherwise it must be a surprise! It was nice, the only thing is that I was out of my mind sometimes and did not follow their jokes:) Some are absolutely "Listener discretion is advised".
And of course, we ate again after the early dinner and also desert. I did feel that I need something sweet cheering me up!
Sunday, November 20, 2005
Living alone
"I hate living alone" I heard the complain twice from a friend in two months. He said, "When you are sick, nobody is there taking care of you; feel lonely too, although it is nice to be alone sometimes."
What is good about living alone, except some known disadvantages?
You can walk naked around sometimes when you want to, except only be caucious when close to the window, because you do not want people see you through the curtain in the living room. You can get up until noon and sleep at 3am; You do not have to cook if you do not want to; You can be alone and have the space and time to be alone when you need; You can be yourself.
......
If you can be yourself with some one special, then what is good about living alone?
What is good about living alone, except some known disadvantages?
You can walk naked around sometimes when you want to, except only be caucious when close to the window, because you do not want people see you through the curtain in the living room. You can get up until noon and sleep at 3am; You do not have to cook if you do not want to; You can be alone and have the space and time to be alone when you need; You can be yourself.
......
If you can be yourself with some one special, then what is good about living alone?
Thursday, November 17, 2005
Something cute
A friend came to pick me up at noon for lunch. We went to a Japanese restaurant at the village. He was complaining that he could not see me for so long and asking what he could do to make me see him more often. We were laughing, and I felt sorry that I am too busy these days to spend time with some friends together.
It has been such a busy month for me, crazy busy! I just feel so many things in my mind and need to be thought and dealt with.
After lunch, he sent me back to work and stopped in front of the building. When I Went to the entrance, saw two co-workers standing there, one asked, " Is that your new boyfriend? I was thinking to go there to smash him" Hey, he is not my boyfriend, but why? "I am jealous." When he said so , he looked quite serious...Hehe..Do not be kidding, I told him.
Uh, it is cute!
It has been such a busy month for me, crazy busy! I just feel so many things in my mind and need to be thought and dealt with.
After lunch, he sent me back to work and stopped in front of the building. When I Went to the entrance, saw two co-workers standing there, one asked, " Is that your new boyfriend? I was thinking to go there to smash him" Hey, he is not my boyfriend, but why? "I am jealous." When he said so , he looked quite serious...Hehe..Do not be kidding, I told him.
Uh, it is cute!
Wednesday, November 16, 2005
Can you believe it
My cousin called yesterday telling me that Grouse Mt. has free skiing this Thursday. I kind of doubt it. Today, a friend called telling me the same thing. I think it must be true. Free skiing day inclusively! Wow, it must be a good way to promote its business or it really needs a business!
Grouse has gorgeous view, which is also an famous interest in Vancouver. One of the restaurants up there is expensive, because they not only sell the food, but also the views. It has a very nice pub and a cafeteria also.
It is the first mountain for me skiing at. Compared to Cypress, it is smaller though. I do not think that I can go tomorrow, speculating that there must be an ocean of people on the line! How lovely it would be!
Grouse has gorgeous view, which is also an famous interest in Vancouver. One of the restaurants up there is expensive, because they not only sell the food, but also the views. It has a very nice pub and a cafeteria also.
It is the first mountain for me skiing at. Compared to Cypress, it is smaller though. I do not think that I can go tomorrow, speculating that there must be an ocean of people on the line! How lovely it would be!
Tuesday, November 15, 2005
Know your sleep better
It is interesting! There is an article about REM and NREM (sleeping) in my exam today. I smiled and thought it may be a good sign:) Hopefully! I know that recently I had some troubles having quality sleep, this article is just for me!
Then I found another article explaining the sleeping stages from the internet, http://www.sleepdisorderchannel.net/stages/
Since the early 20th century, human sleep has been described as a succession of five recurring stages: four non-REM stages and the REM stage. A sixth stage, waking, is often included. Waking, in this context, is actually the phase during which a person falls asleep. Rapid eye movement (REM) sleep is marked by extensive physiological changes, such as accelerated respiration, increased brain activity, eye movement, and muscle relaxation. People dream during REM sleep, perhaps as a result of excited brain activity and the paralysis of major voluntary muscles.
Waking: The waking stage is referred to as relaxed wakefulness, because this is the stage in which the body prepares for sleep. All people fall asleep with tense muscles, their eyes moving erratically. Then, normally, as a person becomes sleepier, the body begins to slow down. Muscles begin to relax, and eye movement slows to a roll.
Stage 1:The eyes are closed during Stage 1 sleep, but if aroused from it, a person may feel as if he or she has not slept.
Stage 2: The heart rate slows, and body temperature decreases. At this point, the body prepares to enter deep sleep.
Stages 3 and 4: These are deep sleep stages, with Stage 4 being more intense than Stage 3.
Non-REM sleep: The period of non-REM sleep (NREM) is comprised of Stages 1-4. A normal sleep cycle has this pattern: waking, stage 1, 2, 3, 4, 3, 2, REM. Usually, REM sleep occurs 90 minutes after sleep onset.
Stage 5-REM sleep: REM is a mixture of brain states of excitement and muscular immobility, it is sometimes called paradoxical sleep. It is generally thought that REM-associated muscle paralysis is meant to keep the body from acting out the dreams that occur during this intensely cerebral stage.
Then I found another article explaining the sleeping stages from the internet, http://www.sleepdisorderchannel.net/stages/
Since the early 20th century, human sleep has been described as a succession of five recurring stages: four non-REM stages and the REM stage. A sixth stage, waking, is often included. Waking, in this context, is actually the phase during which a person falls asleep. Rapid eye movement (REM) sleep is marked by extensive physiological changes, such as accelerated respiration, increased brain activity, eye movement, and muscle relaxation. People dream during REM sleep, perhaps as a result of excited brain activity and the paralysis of major voluntary muscles.
Waking: The waking stage is referred to as relaxed wakefulness, because this is the stage in which the body prepares for sleep. All people fall asleep with tense muscles, their eyes moving erratically. Then, normally, as a person becomes sleepier, the body begins to slow down. Muscles begin to relax, and eye movement slows to a roll.
Stage 1:The eyes are closed during Stage 1 sleep, but if aroused from it, a person may feel as if he or she has not slept.
Stage 2: The heart rate slows, and body temperature decreases. At this point, the body prepares to enter deep sleep.
Stages 3 and 4: These are deep sleep stages, with Stage 4 being more intense than Stage 3.
Non-REM sleep: The period of non-REM sleep (NREM) is comprised of Stages 1-4. A normal sleep cycle has this pattern: waking, stage 1, 2, 3, 4, 3, 2, REM. Usually, REM sleep occurs 90 minutes after sleep onset.
Stage 5-REM sleep: REM is a mixture of brain states of excitement and muscular immobility, it is sometimes called paradoxical sleep. It is generally thought that REM-associated muscle paralysis is meant to keep the body from acting out the dreams that occur during this intensely cerebral stage.
Another joke
A girl visited Vancouver from Vegas. She went to downtown Vancouver, Robson area. She was so excited and surprised while seeing a street named Hornby, "Wow, Horny Street?". Then she said she loves Vancouver. My! She loves Vancouver because of a street named "Horny".
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Jokes
A friend called tonight just to tell me a joke. A deaf is going to visit a patient in the hospital. Before going, he thinks about how to communicate with the patient. The first question and expected answer is: how are you feeling now?-I am getting better.-Thanks God; second one is: What is your diet for now?-Congee or soup.-It is good for you; third one: who is your doctor?-Dr. xx-Oh, he has good reputation, you must agree with me.
Then he goes to the hospital, he asks the patient, " how are you?". The patient says that he is dying. The deaf says, " thanks God". The patient is very angry after hearing that and his face turned into green, but the deaf doesn't notice that and asks, " what you eat recently?"; the patient says, "poison!"; the deaf says, "wow, it is good for you." The deaf continutes the talk, "who is your doctor?" The patient says "Devil". The deaf then says, " he has good reputation, you must agree with me about that."
I could not help laughing...... It is really nice that there are friends around making you laugh, esecially when you are a little down. You must agree with me about that:)
Then he goes to the hospital, he asks the patient, " how are you?". The patient says that he is dying. The deaf says, " thanks God". The patient is very angry after hearing that and his face turned into green, but the deaf doesn't notice that and asks, " what you eat recently?"; the patient says, "poison!"; the deaf says, "wow, it is good for you." The deaf continutes the talk, "who is your doctor?" The patient says "Devil". The deaf then says, " he has good reputation, you must agree with me about that."
I could not help laughing...... It is really nice that there are friends around making you laugh, esecially when you are a little down. You must agree with me about that:)
Monday, November 14, 2005
Perfect day
It is a very beautiful day today, sunny after almost a week of rains. On my way to work, could see the mountains coved by the snow, the air is so clear!!!! I skiied during weekend in a poor condition, today is perfect!!!
Yes, I was thinking that I should go skiing insteady of working. For sure, I am occupied the whole morning because I have to organize a seminar.... I did not expect that I would take half day off until after lunch. I just want to run away, I want to embrace the mountain......Of course not enough time, I only had four runs at the "sunrise", then went back to work staying there until 8pm:)
It is such a perfect day! Feel the ocean is just right in front of me! Fell down once though because I was out of my mind:)
Yes, I was thinking that I should go skiing insteady of working. For sure, I am occupied the whole morning because I have to organize a seminar.... I did not expect that I would take half day off until after lunch. I just want to run away, I want to embrace the mountain......Of course not enough time, I only had four runs at the "sunrise", then went back to work staying there until 8pm:)
It is such a perfect day! Feel the ocean is just right in front of me! Fell down once though because I was out of my mind:)
Wine Chorizo
This morning I got some donuts for the seminar from Safeway, also I got some wine chorizo for myself. Oh, it is so delicious! On my way home tonight I bought one more, I like it! Gees, I could not be vegetarian, at least now:(
Saturday, November 12, 2005
No complain
Went to Cypress skiing again today. I was late this morning. I went to bed around 9:50pm last night, woke up at 3am this morning, then had hard time sleeping again!
I spent 2 hours teaching friends skiing at a easy run, another 3 hours enjoying myself at the blue with another two. When driving up there, it is totally two different world from the city. All the trees are wearing the white cloths, which is one of my favorite colors. The city is raining. It is still foggy, snowy and hardly see farther, colder too. At the end, I had to off the run to get some hot chocolate! Freezing! I was telling myself, no complain, it is good enough! But I was hoping it could be sunny, and could see the city view and ocean view:)
The signal is bad there, only found that at the other side of the mountain, there is some signal for cell phone. I have been checking it, many many times. *Shit!* What I am waiting for....It is crazy!
Had a hot-tub, made a cup of "Alpine Passion"-herbal tea, which I bought this summer at horse shoe bay. Believe me, both are good for after skiing treatment:)
I spent 2 hours teaching friends skiing at a easy run, another 3 hours enjoying myself at the blue with another two. When driving up there, it is totally two different world from the city. All the trees are wearing the white cloths, which is one of my favorite colors. The city is raining. It is still foggy, snowy and hardly see farther, colder too. At the end, I had to off the run to get some hot chocolate! Freezing! I was telling myself, no complain, it is good enough! But I was hoping it could be sunny, and could see the city view and ocean view:)
The signal is bad there, only found that at the other side of the mountain, there is some signal for cell phone. I have been checking it, many many times. *Shit!* What I am waiting for....It is crazy!
Had a hot-tub, made a cup of "Alpine Passion"-herbal tea, which I bought this summer at horse shoe bay. Believe me, both are good for after skiing treatment:)
Friday, November 11, 2005
Skiing day
Went skiing today at Cypress, the first day this winter, very excited. The local mountains are open early this year, good for skiers. It was raining in the city, snowing up there. Limited visibilities, a little foggy, but feel still good! The snow is well groomed, powdery, it is such an enjoyment! Sitting in the lift, taking deep breath, feel the wind and chilly on my face......Feel stressed out these days, thanks for the snow, which can relieve my stress!
I love down hill skiing better. Saw one guy using telemark, very beautiful. Feel not tired although skied for a few hours, but after drivng back, a little sleepy. It was closed early today, next month could be until 9pm. Thinking of going to Whistler tomorrow, must be wonderful!!!
The good thing is that after a hot tub, I might be able to have a good sleep! Hopefully, I am just so alerted these days! So a little grumpy due to lack of sleep:) Will be better tomorrow, it is another day!!!
I love down hill skiing better. Saw one guy using telemark, very beautiful. Feel not tired although skied for a few hours, but after drivng back, a little sleepy. It was closed early today, next month could be until 9pm. Thinking of going to Whistler tomorrow, must be wonderful!!!
The good thing is that after a hot tub, I might be able to have a good sleep! Hopefully, I am just so alerted these days! So a little grumpy due to lack of sleep:) Will be better tomorrow, it is another day!!!
Thursday, November 10, 2005
No title
Turning on the radio 103.5, listening to some music when going to work. I was hoping that I could hear that song again, yes I got what I want. This is the third time that I catch it:) Do not know the singer and title, but I really like it, I gave it a name "what you think of me"?
"Woke up at 4 am this morning...the moon, try to catch up more sleep....take your risk, take your reasons; take your memories... 'cause I do not need them....what you think of me?......" I woke up around 4 am something this morning too, could not sleep again. So tired, but just could not sleep. My friend asked what bothers me?
What bothers me? I hope I know. Had a dream, I have to wait 6-10 years to have something I want in the dream, it is weird!
Nothing happens so easily. Have to make effort and take the risk, instead of thinking and thinking! People make mistakes, we maybe make bigger ones in the future. Friends got the points, I know it. I have no choice, no matter what will happen, I will take it. I do not want to regret 10 years later. I do not want to miss this Certainty! Life is short! I am telling myself.
"Woke up at 4 am this morning...the moon, try to catch up more sleep....take your risk, take your reasons; take your memories... 'cause I do not need them....what you think of me?......" I woke up around 4 am something this morning too, could not sleep again. So tired, but just could not sleep. My friend asked what bothers me?
What bothers me? I hope I know. Had a dream, I have to wait 6-10 years to have something I want in the dream, it is weird!
Nothing happens so easily. Have to make effort and take the risk, instead of thinking and thinking! People make mistakes, we maybe make bigger ones in the future. Friends got the points, I know it. I have no choice, no matter what will happen, I will take it. I do not want to regret 10 years later. I do not want to miss this Certainty! Life is short! I am telling myself.
Hit and run--continued
Went to ICBC claim center yesterday afternoon, the estimated repair cost is $1200. I was asked to go to police station to report this "hit and run". Shoot! I spent almost the whole afternoon for this accident.
The police officer is a very cute guy from Alberta. I like the people from Alberta! A few people I met from Alberta are wonderful! For example the witness guy is from Alberta too! Last night, the officer called, telling me the Run-away lady admitted her fault. She told the story that she drove home then came back putting a note on my car, which I know is a lie, because the witness saw her just hit then run away, never back. I also did not see any notes.; But I am ok with it as long as my car can be fixed, I do not want to give her any trouble!
I bought a bottle of Ice-Wine, I am going to give it to the witness guy with a "thank you" card to show my appreciation. Those people and things need to be rewarded, although I know he did not expect that at all! :)
The police officer is a very cute guy from Alberta. I like the people from Alberta! A few people I met from Alberta are wonderful! For example the witness guy is from Alberta too! Last night, the officer called, telling me the Run-away lady admitted her fault. She told the story that she drove home then came back putting a note on my car, which I know is a lie, because the witness saw her just hit then run away, never back. I also did not see any notes.; But I am ok with it as long as my car can be fixed, I do not want to give her any trouble!
I bought a bottle of Ice-Wine, I am going to give it to the witness guy with a "thank you" card to show my appreciation. Those people and things need to be rewarded, although I know he did not expect that at all! :)
Wednesday, November 09, 2005
Velha Infância
Você é assim
You are like this
Um sonho pra mim
A dream to me
E quando eu não te vejo
when I don’t see you
Eu penso em você
I think of you
Desde o amanhecer
From the sunrise
Até quando eu me deito
Until when I go to sleep
Eu gosto de você
I like you
E gosto de ficar com você
I like to be with you
Meu riso é tão feliz contigo
My laugh is so happy with you
O meu melhor amigo é o meu amor
My best friend is my love
E a gente canta
And we sing
E a gente dança
And we dance
E a gente não se cansa
we never get tired
De ser criança
Of being child
Da gente brincar
Of playing
Da nossa velha infância
Of our old childhood
Seus olhos meu clarão
Your eyes are my light
Me guiam dentro da escuridão
Show me the path in the dark
Seus pés me abrem o caminho
Your feet open the path to me
Eu sigo e nunca me sinto só
I follow and never feel lonely
Você é assim
You are like this
Um sonho pra mim
A dream to me
Quero te encher de beijos
I want to kiss you all
...
---by Arnaldo Antunes/ Carlinhos Brown/ Marisa Monte
You are like this
Um sonho pra mim
A dream to me
E quando eu não te vejo
when I don’t see you
Eu penso em você
I think of you
Desde o amanhecer
From the sunrise
Até quando eu me deito
Until when I go to sleep
Eu gosto de você
I like you
E gosto de ficar com você
I like to be with you
Meu riso é tão feliz contigo
My laugh is so happy with you
O meu melhor amigo é o meu amor
My best friend is my love
E a gente canta
And we sing
E a gente dança
And we dance
E a gente não se cansa
we never get tired
De ser criança
Of being child
Da gente brincar
Of playing
Da nossa velha infância
Of our old childhood
Seus olhos meu clarão
Your eyes are my light
Me guiam dentro da escuridão
Show me the path in the dark
Seus pés me abrem o caminho
Your feet open the path to me
Eu sigo e nunca me sinto só
I follow and never feel lonely
Você é assim
You are like this
Um sonho pra mim
A dream to me
Quero te encher de beijos
I want to kiss you all
...
---by Arnaldo Antunes/ Carlinhos Brown/ Marisa Monte
Tuesday, November 08, 2005
Hit and run
I went grocery shopping after work at the Marketplace. When I was putting things in the car, somebody walked toward me telling that one hit my car then run away!!!! Ahhh. Yes, run away! Why people do that??? I feel upset!
This guy heard the crash and wrote down the car's plate number. He gave me his name and phone number also. So sweet! It is very nice of him. I appreciate that very much! I feel happy because in this world, still so many nice people around.
I called ICBC and made a claim. This is the third accident this year, none is my fault. I never had any accidents in the past years, but this year, I have three! Ugh! Crap! Have to go to the claim center tomorrow to get the estimation, I was told that the policeman will be there for a report too, because hit and run is a crime. Getting serious, right?
This guy heard the crash and wrote down the car's plate number. He gave me his name and phone number also. So sweet! It is very nice of him. I appreciate that very much! I feel happy because in this world, still so many nice people around.
I called ICBC and made a claim. This is the third accident this year, none is my fault. I never had any accidents in the past years, but this year, I have three! Ugh! Crap! Have to go to the claim center tomorrow to get the estimation, I was told that the policeman will be there for a report too, because hit and run is a crime. Getting serious, right?
Busy week
I am expecting a very busy week. A friend just sent me pdf file for a studying material, which I have to finish by next Monday. Ugh, I think I will enjoy the novel better:)
Today is passing fast. Arranged a seminar for next Monday. Also invited another speaker from India in the week of 21st, waiting for the confirmation. Financial lady came to me ask for the PO, which I gave them almost month ago...she very appreciated that I had the copy. Hehee, always get prepared!
Had a pleasant lunch and had to get my driver license renewed during the break too. Got a driver license writing exam preparation book for somebody:)
Then time to leave for HOME. Have to do some reading tonight, good luck to me!
Today is passing fast. Arranged a seminar for next Monday. Also invited another speaker from India in the week of 21st, waiting for the confirmation. Financial lady came to me ask for the PO, which I gave them almost month ago...she very appreciated that I had the copy. Hehee, always get prepared!
Had a pleasant lunch and had to get my driver license renewed during the break too. Got a driver license writing exam preparation book for somebody:)
Then time to leave for HOME. Have to do some reading tonight, good luck to me!
Monday, November 07, 2005
The Bridges of Madison County
I ordered this book last week and just received it tonight. I read it many years ago and also watched the movie, which made me cry. Yes, "sad movies make me cry". I said "yes, open the door and go with him, yes, go..." when Robert was waiting for Francesca in a steady rainy night.
At the time it was first published, many people around me read it. It is just a small book, 200 pages small book. I remembered that somebody told me that I was too young to understand it. At that time, I could not agree with it, I though I did, but I was wrong. Even so many years passed, I still can not say I understand....How can I understand it, even I.....
It is a legendary love story!!! I want to read again, and see how I will feel and see if I have grown up or mature enough to understand.
But I do believe: "In a universe of ambiguity, this kind of certainty comes only once, and never again, no matter how many lifetimes you live."
At the time it was first published, many people around me read it. It is just a small book, 200 pages small book. I remembered that somebody told me that I was too young to understand it. At that time, I could not agree with it, I though I did, but I was wrong. Even so many years passed, I still can not say I understand....How can I understand it, even I.....
It is a legendary love story!!! I want to read again, and see how I will feel and see if I have grown up or mature enough to understand.
But I do believe: "In a universe of ambiguity, this kind of certainty comes only once, and never again, no matter how many lifetimes you live."
Timing
Some people have eating disorder, I am having kind of time-disorder. I went to bad at 8pm last night and woke up around 2am this morning, then could not sleep again. I was thinking mabye I'd better just get up then go to work. Yes, go to work at 4 am. Gees! Crazy!
It is very rare for me to sleep before 1opm and I like to stay in my bed a little more in the morning:)
Ugh, What is wrong? I feel time is slowing down its foot step. Shit! I mean it is slower than how I feel. Also I am losing my timing sense! Ughhhhh!
I am lost in the changing of night and day, as if I am living in the other part of the world!
It is very rare for me to sleep before 1opm and I like to stay in my bed a little more in the morning:)
Ugh, What is wrong? I feel time is slowing down its foot step. Shit! I mean it is slower than how I feel. Also I am losing my timing sense! Ughhhhh!
I am lost in the changing of night and day, as if I am living in the other part of the world!
Sunday, November 06, 2005
Mom
Talking to mom over the phone. She sounds happy! I miss her. She is a very traditional woman, she was beautiful when she was young, she is lovely and smart! But she is afraid of somehtings, electricity, crossing the street alone, etc.
She is patient, the patience does not run through me:( This way I am more like my father, ?maybe...I am not sure, because he was always patient with me, never got mad at me, I know I was his favorite, although he loved other kids a lot too:)
Mom has two dogs at home, which she cares a lot. I heard that one is sick recently, she is very worried. Those dogs are so smart and cute. One doesn't want to even eat if she is not at home. Mom visited me staying for 5 months, during this time, that dog got sick for a few times, which I think is because of missing her. One reason why mom left is that she missed the dogs.
I hope she can come here again next year, but she kind of hesitates. I guess she misses the dogs and feels bored here because I have to work every day and can not be with her weekdays. Too bad!
She is patient, the patience does not run through me:( This way I am more like my father, ?maybe...I am not sure, because he was always patient with me, never got mad at me, I know I was his favorite, although he loved other kids a lot too:)
Mom has two dogs at home, which she cares a lot. I heard that one is sick recently, she is very worried. Those dogs are so smart and cute. One doesn't want to even eat if she is not at home. Mom visited me staying for 5 months, during this time, that dog got sick for a few times, which I think is because of missing her. One reason why mom left is that she missed the dogs.
I hope she can come here again next year, but she kind of hesitates. I guess she misses the dogs and feels bored here because I have to work every day and can not be with her weekdays. Too bad!
Celebrities
Went to Celebrities last night. It is a gay club, I am straight, do not worry:) Saw some cute guys, very cute, too bad, they are gay. They were born to be gay, I understand. Friends went up to the stage dancing, I had two Soho-7. I am not good at drinking, which is not what I am proud of:)
One gay guy dancing at the desk-top near DJ, my friend said, "look, he looks like ?". Oh, no! Do not say it. Thinking of him is "hot". Since then, he really attracted my attention.
Some "guys" went to women's bathroom, it was very impressive. I mean I did not see anything that I should not see, seeing them standing there waiting is really something.
Friend drove us back, met policemen road check. *Shoot!* He was tested, reading was 10, he is allowed to drink more:) so nothing happened.
This morning when a friend heard that I went to gay club, asking me, "Are you changing to be L or BS?" Oh, no way!
One gay guy dancing at the desk-top near DJ, my friend said, "look, he looks like ?". Oh, no! Do not say it. Thinking of him is "hot". Since then, he really attracted my attention.
Some "guys" went to women's bathroom, it was very impressive. I mean I did not see anything that I should not see, seeing them standing there waiting is really something.
Friend drove us back, met policemen road check. *Shoot!* He was tested, reading was 10, he is allowed to drink more:) so nothing happened.
This morning when a friend heard that I went to gay club, asking me, "Are you changing to be L or BS?" Oh, no way!
Saturday, November 05, 2005
Beautiful day
Did some laundry today. I mean I really did some laundry for some of my things. I also let the wash machine work for me, it is still working there:) It is raining, not heavy, light rain, very gentle. Looking through my beautiful curtain, I can see the trees with yellow and red leaves. I love a day like this, quiet, alone at home, enjoy the silence ( a little noise from the dryer though).
Had a shower in the morning, took a bath in the afternoon, I know it is a little weird:) But that is just what I want to do. Water was hot, Sliding though the bubbles, feel good. My cellphone was with me this time, but never rings.
No sailing today, and wait for the skiing. Wanted to play tennis, but my friend was not as crazy as me doing that in a light rainy day! Being asked out for lunch, I told my friend I am on diet:) Nobody "believes" me about it though. Everybody laughs at me when hearing that, it is sad:(
Will go out for dinner though, light one, I said.
Had a shower in the morning, took a bath in the afternoon, I know it is a little weird:) But that is just what I want to do. Water was hot, Sliding though the bubbles, feel good. My cellphone was with me this time, but never rings.
No sailing today, and wait for the skiing. Wanted to play tennis, but my friend was not as crazy as me doing that in a light rainy day! Being asked out for lunch, I told my friend I am on diet:) Nobody "believes" me about it though. Everybody laughs at me when hearing that, it is sad:(
Will go out for dinner though, light one, I said.
Brain activity
Have you experienced that your brain is still very active when you are "sleeping"? Weired, huh?
Friday, November 04, 2005
Papaya in Oven
I was preparing some papaya this morning for my healthy breakfast:) Obviously there is an oven beside me, A co-worker asked, "are you going to put it into oven?" Heheeee, heh, Grilled papaya, how it tastes?
Sleepless Vancouver
Can not sleep. Listen to the music once and once again. Thinking. Listening, thinking, then listening again.
Sleepless. The thinking consumes all my energy. I just feel something is missing.
Sleepless. The thinking consumes all my energy. I just feel something is missing.
Thursday, November 03, 2005
Tonight
It has been raining the whole day. It was freezing. They say that is why people are all with somebody now this season, need cuddling. After work, went home directly. Turned on the fireplace and cooked some noodle for dinner.
Nothing good on TV, turned it off, turned on the computer. Listened to some music, then took a bath, listened to more music. Heard that snow is coming already in some mountains, it is early this year. So might be able to go skiing soon:) I will try the Telemark this year hopefully, I love it! It is so beautiful, I have good faith in myself that I can do it one day too.
Tried to phone my mom, the line was busy. Tried to phone a friend in Montreal, the line was busy too. Shit!
Going to sleep soon and call it a day!
Nothing good on TV, turned it off, turned on the computer. Listened to some music, then took a bath, listened to more music. Heard that snow is coming already in some mountains, it is early this year. So might be able to go skiing soon:) I will try the Telemark this year hopefully, I love it! It is so beautiful, I have good faith in myself that I can do it one day too.
Tried to phone my mom, the line was busy. Tried to phone a friend in Montreal, the line was busy too. Shit!
Going to sleep soon and call it a day!
Tigers
What are we now but voices
who promise each other
a life neither one can deliver
not for lack of wanting
but wanting can't make it so,
We hang from a vine
at the cliff's edge,
There are tigers above
and below. Let us love
one another and let go.
- Eliza Griswold
who promise each other
a life neither one can deliver
not for lack of wanting
but wanting can't make it so,
We hang from a vine
at the cliff's edge,
There are tigers above
and below. Let us love
one another and let go.
- Eliza Griswold
Wednesday, November 02, 2005
He has balls
I had a meeting tonight, which was supposed to happen yesterday, but it was changed to today. After parking my car, I walked toward the Pacific Center. It was raining hard, and I had no umbrella, I was wet. Stopped at the stop sign, waited for the green light, felt it took a century. A man standing beside me asked if I wanted to stay under his umbrella. Oh, yes! He walked me one block to the building. It is so nice that in the rainy day, a stranger can offer you to share his umbrella! I love Vancouver!
After meeting, had dinner at Bellagio as usual. Talked a lot with my friend. Laughed a lot too. She is funny, but she is no fun when she has no sleep, I told her to catch up sleep. It is funny, we both have same side throat sore, and even the pimple at the same place! Oh Gees. We have some things in common, we both have wild side, and sometimes crazy. That's why we like each other a lot?:)
After dinner, we went to the Robertson square parkade, met a guy in the elevator. He talked to me and asked me for dinner Saturday night. Whaaaatt? I can not believe my ears. He wanted to write down his number for me also. I just laughed and don't know what to say......Oh, in this city, still there are some people have balls!!!!, which is good!
After meeting, had dinner at Bellagio as usual. Talked a lot with my friend. Laughed a lot too. She is funny, but she is no fun when she has no sleep, I told her to catch up sleep. It is funny, we both have same side throat sore, and even the pimple at the same place! Oh Gees. We have some things in common, we both have wild side, and sometimes crazy. That's why we like each other a lot?:)
After dinner, we went to the Robertson square parkade, met a guy in the elevator. He talked to me and asked me for dinner Saturday night. Whaaaatt? I can not believe my ears. He wanted to write down his number for me also. I just laughed and don't know what to say......Oh, in this city, still there are some people have balls!!!!, which is good!
Attraction
"Women are attracted to the men they love; men love the women they are attracted to." When I heard this, I wrote it down:)
Camperama
A co-worker wears a T-shirt today. I saw O2 in the front and a guy basking on the beach, it says: An art of doing camperama.
Oh, O2, Oxygen? He said, it is 2002. Ohh! Then what is Camperama? "Camping..." "We camped at my friend's front yard!" It must be a big yard. "10 tents in the front yard and the house is facing the Okanagan valley"
Wow, it is not a big yard, it is Huge!
Oh, O2, Oxygen? He said, it is 2002. Ohh! Then what is Camperama? "Camping..." "We camped at my friend's front yard!" It must be a big yard. "10 tents in the front yard and the house is facing the Okanagan valley"
Wow, it is not a big yard, it is Huge!
Crap
A co-worker complained to me that it is a bad day. What happened? "Oh, the computers do not cooperate, so many troubles, have to fix them and ALSO somebody was questioning my expertise!" Ugh, it is a crap!
Then he told them: ok if you think you know better, you do it! Yes, just like that! "if you think you know better, do it yourself!" I like it.
It is a OMFG day for me too. Crap! And *F*!
Then he told them: ok if you think you know better, you do it! Yes, just like that! "if you think you know better, do it yourself!" I like it.
It is a OMFG day for me too. Crap! And *F*!
Change
I told my friend a few days ago that I need a change! She was kind of "shocked" or "worried". "Whaat? Change?? Do not tell me that you want to move away or something"......Yes, maybe a haircut:)
I am going to change the topics of my blog a little. I am so emotional these days, need some good jokes and be nice to somebody who is reading my blog:)
I am going to change the topics of my blog a little. I am so emotional these days, need some good jokes and be nice to somebody who is reading my blog:)
Monday, October 31, 2005
Happy Halloween
It is not a quiet night, because it is Halloween. Sometimes it is nice to have a change. The fireworks makes me think of the Chinese Spring Festival. It's been 6 years since I spent that holiday at home.
I have some vacation days each year, I used all up:) I usually go back to China to visit once a year, but not during the Festival yet. I really miss that holiday, a real holiday, friends and family get together, so happy!
I was in a party last Halloween. I met my piano instructor in the party, also saw a lesbian couple. One was flirting with me, I was worried if I look not straight:) Time flies!
Talking with a friend and laughing over the phone. We talked about kids and both are afraid of giving a birth, so we think if we can buy kids at grocery store, we will. It is just a funny talk...It is good to laugh in the Halloween. Happy Halloween!
I have some vacation days each year, I used all up:) I usually go back to China to visit once a year, but not during the Festival yet. I really miss that holiday, a real holiday, friends and family get together, so happy!
I was in a party last Halloween. I met my piano instructor in the party, also saw a lesbian couple. One was flirting with me, I was worried if I look not straight:) Time flies!
Talking with a friend and laughing over the phone. We talked about kids and both are afraid of giving a birth, so we think if we can buy kids at grocery store, we will. It is just a funny talk...It is good to laugh in the Halloween. Happy Halloween!
Saturday, October 29, 2005
Autumn rain
It was raining last night, maybe the whole night? Every time I woke up, I can hear the sound of the rain crackling on the window, ground and trees. The rain doesn't hurt at all, but thinking about something in such a rainy night in the fall hurts.
Saturday
Got a cup of hot smoothes at TimHorton this morning, then went sailing. It was freezing out there when sun was covered by the clouds. Afternoon it was getting clear, really enjoyed the warmth of the sunlight! Saw almost 10 seals today and lots of birds. I asked my friends to look at the sea kayak, they were laughing at me, because finally we found out that it was a seagull on a log.
Friends wanted to go to a gay club tonight, I told them to have fun. Went home and talked to a good friend for more than an hour. I cried over the phone, she was worried. I laugh a lot, I cry sometimes, I love, it's me. It is hard to pretend something when with good friend.
Friends wanted to go to a gay club tonight, I told them to have fun. Went home and talked to a good friend for more than an hour. I cried over the phone, she was worried. I laugh a lot, I cry sometimes, I love, it's me. It is hard to pretend something when with good friend.
Wednesday, October 26, 2005
Crying in the rain
I like taking a bath, especially when I feel stressed out. So I bought all kinds of bath oil, salt, bubble bath......Maybe have a glass of wine when I have the mood; but no wine today, only flower tea. Friend called, did not answer, just want to relax! I am bad sometimes I know it.
Then listening to that song over and over again. When I really love something, I know it right away. Like shopping, but not necessarily same:) It is not easy to find something that I am interested in. But If there is something, I will know it. I do not usually spend on something I am just ok with, no matter it is cheap or expensive; I mean I am picky when I am just ok with it. But when I really love something, I do not care how much it is, cheap or expensive, I always think it is worth it. Sorry for the distraction, let's get back to the music.
It is a very nice song "crying in the rain". I love this song, not sure if it is the rain, the thunder, the way he is singing it, or what he is singing, anyway, I know I love it. It is sad though, makes me want to cry. People say, women are water, men are mud, mud? :( Maybe that's why women have more tears?
I was thinking to sleep earlier tonight, but it is already 12 something. Have to get up a little early this morning. Maybe one more time, oh, I mean the song:) How about twice more?
Then listening to that song over and over again. When I really love something, I know it right away. Like shopping, but not necessarily same:) It is not easy to find something that I am interested in. But If there is something, I will know it. I do not usually spend on something I am just ok with, no matter it is cheap or expensive; I mean I am picky when I am just ok with it. But when I really love something, I do not care how much it is, cheap or expensive, I always think it is worth it. Sorry for the distraction, let's get back to the music.
It is a very nice song "crying in the rain". I love this song, not sure if it is the rain, the thunder, the way he is singing it, or what he is singing, anyway, I know I love it. It is sad though, makes me want to cry. People say, women are water, men are mud, mud? :( Maybe that's why women have more tears?
I was thinking to sleep earlier tonight, but it is already 12 something. Have to get up a little early this morning. Maybe one more time, oh, I mean the song:) How about twice more?
Tuesday, October 25, 2005
Quality of the life
What does "Quality" mean to you? I did not mean money, of course money is important, but it is not everything:) Money can buy a million $$$ house, but can not buy love and happiness. BTW, historical record of 40 M$ 649 is a chance for you:) Even though it kind of equals impossibility, why not try your luck!
I like the word "quality". For me, quality life is a simple life full of pleasure and sweetness. I want a quality life which is a sweet home, sweet company and great sex. He is a friend, a lover and husband. He is the one who you can talk to, trust, and be yourself with. He is the one who you want to take care of like a kid sometimes. He is the one who can make you laugh. He is the one that you want to do many things together with; the one who you would like to share the life with, share the happiness, the pain, achievement and failure.
Is it desperate romantic story? I hope not, and I have a hope still at least!
:)
I like the word "quality". For me, quality life is a simple life full of pleasure and sweetness. I want a quality life which is a sweet home, sweet company and great sex. He is a friend, a lover and husband. He is the one who you can talk to, trust, and be yourself with. He is the one who you want to take care of like a kid sometimes. He is the one who can make you laugh. He is the one that you want to do many things together with; the one who you would like to share the life with, share the happiness, the pain, achievement and failure.
Is it desperate romantic story? I hope not, and I have a hope still at least!
:)
Monday, October 24, 2005
Friends
Called in sick today. I am really sick this time:) A friend called around 11:30am and took me out for lunch. It was good, otherwise I would not eat lunch I think. I am just lucky to have some good friends around. Came to Vancouver alone 6 years ago, knew nobody, then make some really good friends here.
Want to try doing some business, I think the way doing business is the same as being yourself. Have to be honest, kind, making efforts to dealth with partners. People all say business men are very tricky, maybe it is true, but it will be not my case. I would treat my business partners like friends. If I am wrong, correct me please. Giving your heart, then you will have his.
I never have any expectation when making friends, I will do what I can and what I want to do for them. Then I found out, they are all so nice to me.
Want to try doing some business, I think the way doing business is the same as being yourself. Have to be honest, kind, making efforts to dealth with partners. People all say business men are very tricky, maybe it is true, but it will be not my case. I would treat my business partners like friends. If I am wrong, correct me please. Giving your heart, then you will have his.
I never have any expectation when making friends, I will do what I can and what I want to do for them. Then I found out, they are all so nice to me.
Saturday, October 22, 2005
Good Sailing
I had a good time sailing today. There is strong wind out there on the ocean. We laughed at the forcast, it said only 4-5 knots:) It is almost 15-20, I guess. The boat was tipped around at least 30 degree, once more than 45 deg. It is exciting, but I did feel a little scared, I was afraid that it would capasize, do not want to die yet. I am just kidding, nothing so serious, even it is tipped over.I have life jacket! But I did almost scream out. Do not laugh at me for the fact that I am not good at swimming. Yes, it is rediculous. I love water though, a lot, Love ocean. I like waterskiing, sailing...but I am not a good swimmer at all.
One night stand
Can you do it? Friends talked about that before. Non of my friends can take it, I am not kidding. "Things exist for reasons", I have no comment about that with others, I just can not do it.
Nothing is right or wrong, it is all about you, as long as you can accept that and sleep well with it, you can do everything you want. That is my opinion.
A friend said, he is easily in love with somebody, he looked innocent when he said so, but he can not do the "one night" thing. Another told me he loves women, I like the honesty too. Some people like flirting, talk a lot, but very conservative:) People are just different. Old saying-man thinks of sex first, then love; woman loves, then sex:)
Nothing is right or wrong, it is all about you, as long as you can accept that and sleep well with it, you can do everything you want. That is my opinion.
A friend said, he is easily in love with somebody, he looked innocent when he said so, but he can not do the "one night" thing. Another told me he loves women, I like the honesty too. Some people like flirting, talk a lot, but very conservative:) People are just different. Old saying-man thinks of sex first, then love; woman loves, then sex:)
Saturday morning
It is such a beautiful day! Woke up around 6am something, could not sleep any more. Staying in my bed thinking about something, wondering if it is a good day for sailing or rainy. Thought somebody somewhere esle might be up at that time too and stay awake like me.
Okay, have to go, friends are waiting for me, I guess....
BTW, if you like somebody, will you tell him? I am strating doing that. Somebody told me that if you find somebody, just do not miss him, you might never find him again in you life time. I think it is true.
Okay, have to go, friends are waiting for me, I guess....
BTW, if you like somebody, will you tell him? I am strating doing that. Somebody told me that if you find somebody, just do not miss him, you might never find him again in you life time. I think it is true.
Friday, October 21, 2005
Good pressure
My friend talked about the pressure that she recently gave to her BF. She told me that she is surprised that she did that. It is a long distance relationship. She told him that next year she would not travel as much as this year, because she wants to save to buy a condo...So either move here or...Amazingly he got the very first job interview after that. Before he made 50% effort, now 90%:)
Does long distance relationship work? It works if you have good faith in each other and for a period of time, I think.
Did I give any pressure to anybody? So far only once, if it is. I think a little pressure is good for both, if I do not really care or do not grow up yet, I won't. Only if I really want and am serious about something, I will do it. Not much, a bit is enough. If people care, they will know what to do. Of course, good communication plays a key role here!
Does long distance relationship work? It works if you have good faith in each other and for a period of time, I think.
Did I give any pressure to anybody? So far only once, if it is. I think a little pressure is good for both, if I do not really care or do not grow up yet, I won't. Only if I really want and am serious about something, I will do it. Not much, a bit is enough. If people care, they will know what to do. Of course, good communication plays a key role here!
Friday thing
After the meeting, went for dinner with my lovely friend. The Belagio, a nice restaurant we usually go for pasta. We have not met up in almost two weeks, both are busy. Talked a lot. But I am so exausted today, unbelievable! I need to find somebody to balme:)
We were supposed to get the business card tonight, but that guy in charge did not show up. It is a group of 7 people who built up a partnership for consulting business. It is a thing out of my rountine work.
Also, what the heck! I got my examination result, the "intelligence and IQ" thing, I was right, not good at all. Shit!! The other friend just talked about during the meeting, she was upset about that too. I was hoping appears a miracle! :( Anyway, I did not make any effort at all before the test, so not really a big surprise. Never be so easy, I have to try harder, I knew it. It applies to anything for me, I guess.
We were supposed to get the business card tonight, but that guy in charge did not show up. It is a group of 7 people who built up a partnership for consulting business. It is a thing out of my rountine work.
Also, what the heck! I got my examination result, the "intelligence and IQ" thing, I was right, not good at all. Shit!! The other friend just talked about during the meeting, she was upset about that too. I was hoping appears a miracle! :( Anyway, I did not make any effort at all before the test, so not really a big surprise. Never be so easy, I have to try harder, I knew it. It applies to anything for me, I guess.
Thursday, October 20, 2005
Moody
I have a meeting tomorrow night at 6Pm, Uh! It is Friday night. It is my second "job" thing. I need to finish up something before that, but I just started. Feel lazy and tired. I am so careless sometimes when I want to, friends all know that, I am forgiven:)
Friend wants to go out after meeting, not sure if I will go. I am a little moody these days, I bite when I am grumpy. If I do not have enough sleep and when hungry, I am.
Friend wants to go out after meeting, not sure if I will go. I am a little moody these days, I bite when I am grumpy. If I do not have enough sleep and when hungry, I am.
Wednesday, October 19, 2005
Listen to my heart
Closing my eyes, just listen to the music, listen to you......Afraid to let it flow?
United Way
This morning there is a United Way kick off meeting at my work, starting with $5 brunch, all will go to United Way which will help people in need, from children's hospital to cancer foundation, etc...
A large amount of the meetings in this bulilding are full of shit (excuse me), but this one makes sense. I was a volunteer for last two years for that. I like the idea of sharing and helping people in need. I was thinking I would like to do some works on charity if having chances. I like the pan-fried or whatever the egg, but it is gone so fast:) Did not eat lunch although I brought it, will leave it for tomorrow. Do not usually eat much during lunch. It is raining, played the PingPong game a little bit during break. The game is part of UW activities for raising money, palyers pay $10. I was in, but as you can imagine, I lost in every game.
I told you that I am not good at that, maybe other games:)
A large amount of the meetings in this bulilding are full of shit (excuse me), but this one makes sense. I was a volunteer for last two years for that. I like the idea of sharing and helping people in need. I was thinking I would like to do some works on charity if having chances. I like the pan-fried or whatever the egg, but it is gone so fast:) Did not eat lunch although I brought it, will leave it for tomorrow. Do not usually eat much during lunch. It is raining, played the PingPong game a little bit during break. The game is part of UW activities for raising money, palyers pay $10. I was in, but as you can imagine, I lost in every game.
I told you that I am not good at that, maybe other games:)
Tuesday, October 18, 2005
The cat
It is a year already since I moved into this apartment. I still think of that black cat sometimes. I met that cat outside of my old place. He is so smart and wanted to find a "home". He ever followed me into the building and tried to follow me in the elevator. I felt very sorry for not being able to keep him.
After that, I bought some cat food and fed him whenever I saw him. He kind of liked me and trusted me. He could let me close to him and even touch him. The last time I saw him, he was with another cat. He knew my car. I parked my car and went close to them. The other cat run away, but he did not. I left him some dry food.
Not long after that, I moved out of that building, and never saw him again. I still have the cat food. If it is not expired yet, I should give it away to friend who has cats. I really want to see him again and hope he found a company. Then I will feel happy about that.
After that, I bought some cat food and fed him whenever I saw him. He kind of liked me and trusted me. He could let me close to him and even touch him. The last time I saw him, he was with another cat. He knew my car. I parked my car and went close to them. The other cat run away, but he did not. I left him some dry food.
Not long after that, I moved out of that building, and never saw him again. I still have the cat food. If it is not expired yet, I should give it away to friend who has cats. I really want to see him again and hope he found a company. Then I will feel happy about that.
At work
My office is a big mess. I just do not want to clean it up or make it tidy, need motivation:) After having lunch, talked with a few nice people here in the office, then back to my routine work.
Had a good lunch. I know it is kind of cold having lunch outside on the beach, October already. But it is really a sunny day. Did a little hiking after lunch. It is a nice trail, beautiful trees with falling leaves. Huge maple or unknown leaves dancing in the sky, some seeds falling down turning beautifully like skating performance. There is a small creek, water running through the forest happily, birds are singing. Only taking a few portraits during the break.
A coworker said his third kid Andrew just had his first birthday. I saw that cute boy once, adorable:)
Had a good lunch. I know it is kind of cold having lunch outside on the beach, October already. But it is really a sunny day. Did a little hiking after lunch. It is a nice trail, beautiful trees with falling leaves. Huge maple or unknown leaves dancing in the sky, some seeds falling down turning beautifully like skating performance. There is a small creek, water running through the forest happily, birds are singing. Only taking a few portraits during the break.
A coworker said his third kid Andrew just had his first birthday. I saw that cute boy once, adorable:)
Demanding
Am I demanding? Only one man so far said so, and one girlfriend. The girl is my best friend, a friend in need and indeed. I am wondering why she said so, she just said, "you are". I have no clue! Am I really demanding in relationship???? Are people becoming demanding in relationships?
I do not think I ask much in relationship, I am thoughtful, passionate, forgiving(?, most of the time), impatient(50%). I am not easy to be involved in the relationship, but once I am in, I hardly control myself. A testmony from a friend is that there is fire inside the calm ocean, just need ignition.
I do not think I ask much in relationship, I am thoughtful, passionate, forgiving(?, most of the time), impatient(50%). I am not easy to be involved in the relationship, but once I am in, I hardly control myself. A testmony from a friend is that there is fire inside the calm ocean, just need ignition.
Movie
I watched a movie the other day, "40 years old virgin". It is hilarious! I can not help laughing to death.
Monday, October 17, 2005
O girassol
The sunflower! I love this song although I do not understand what he is singing. It is such a piece of beautiful music, passionate, romantic, gentle, blue, delightful......Spanish guitar, the piano and the violin, just perfect!
Is there a wish and hope? Is it telling a story? "Want to be with you and faça-lhe o amor in that summer night"? "I miss you!"
Is there a wish and hope? Is it telling a story? "Want to be with you and faça-lhe o amor in that summer night"? "I miss you!"
Color of the fall
I love the color of the fall. It is gorgeous! The leaves, so beautiful. It is the painting of the Nature, the coulor, the red, the yellow, the golden yellow, the green, so rich! I like the smell of the leaves and trees. I like to walk on the fallen leaves, feel like stepping on the snow, the sounds of the world.
Thinking I might bring my carmera to work tomorrow and take some pictures!
Thinking I might bring my carmera to work tomorrow and take some pictures!
Sunday, October 16, 2005
Life is fragile, but love not
Mom visited in April and stayed with me for 5 months. She left a month ago because she felt so bored here and miss her two cute dogs. I am the youngest one in my family, I have two brothers and one sister. I am alone here in Vancouver thousands miles away from "home".
Just talked to her and she is staying with her old friends for a few days and sounds happy. The aunt, her friend, never married. She was very pretty when she was young, I saw the pictue. I heard that she ever was going out with my uncle, my mother's brother; but for some reasons, parents's opinion, maybe, was involved, then they seperated. 30 or 40 years later, uncle's wife died, people wanted to stick the two half stamps together, but thing changed in 40 years, for sure. Not successful!
Mom was retired after having the second kid. She cooked for us before Dad was retired, then Dad cooked. I never cooked at home. I was kind of spoiled. I learned cooking here in Vancouver 6 years ago when I first came here. During her stay in Vancouver with me, I cook for her, she never cooked here. I am so happy to cook for her!
Dad passed away in 2001 when he and my mom visited me in Vancouver. It is the most difficult time in my life. It was not supposed to happen, not at all! Heart attack, I could not talk about it in two years, even can not think about that. God knows how much I loved him. The pain and the desperateness, I can still feel when I am writing this.
My parents are very kind and very decent. They like to help people, they taught me "love". They never interfere me with anything. They respect my choice for life. They love each other. He always hold her hand when walking together. I am hoping that I can find one who I love and love me holding my hands, sharing the happiness, the pain and the life with me together no matter what...Life is fragile, but love not!
Just talked to her and she is staying with her old friends for a few days and sounds happy. The aunt, her friend, never married. She was very pretty when she was young, I saw the pictue. I heard that she ever was going out with my uncle, my mother's brother; but for some reasons, parents's opinion, maybe, was involved, then they seperated. 30 or 40 years later, uncle's wife died, people wanted to stick the two half stamps together, but thing changed in 40 years, for sure. Not successful!
Mom was retired after having the second kid. She cooked for us before Dad was retired, then Dad cooked. I never cooked at home. I was kind of spoiled. I learned cooking here in Vancouver 6 years ago when I first came here. During her stay in Vancouver with me, I cook for her, she never cooked here. I am so happy to cook for her!
Dad passed away in 2001 when he and my mom visited me in Vancouver. It is the most difficult time in my life. It was not supposed to happen, not at all! Heart attack, I could not talk about it in two years, even can not think about that. God knows how much I loved him. The pain and the desperateness, I can still feel when I am writing this.
My parents are very kind and very decent. They like to help people, they taught me "love". They never interfere me with anything. They respect my choice for life. They love each other. He always hold her hand when walking together. I am hoping that I can find one who I love and love me holding my hands, sharing the happiness, the pain and the life with me together no matter what...Life is fragile, but love not!
The simple happiness
It rains the whole day. Got up late and did some laundry. I went to the science world in the afternoon. It is very impressive! I never saw so many kids in my life in one day and they are so cute! The volunteer J showed me around the Eureka and I tried the parachute, plasma, and so on. I am so pleased by trying those. An unforgettable day for me! It is the simple pleasure.
Yes, the simple happiness is what I like and what I have been looking for. But sometimes I forgot it because of the busy life and the expectations. I dreamed of living in a quiet small town, which rains a lot, has winding road made from the old stones, high walls on both sides of the street, some purple flowers just waving over my face. An old friend is living in such a beautiful town now and having his simple life. I am happy for him. I forget if I talked about that with him before, but it is in my heart. I can recall it, although I forgot sometimes; when I think of that, I feel my heart aching, it seems a centry passed by already.
I do not like complications, but it seems my patten. How can I change it? Somebody said that life is not easy, how happy you are depends on how well you solve the problem. I think it is ture, and it is life!
Yes, the simple happiness is what I like and what I have been looking for. But sometimes I forgot it because of the busy life and the expectations. I dreamed of living in a quiet small town, which rains a lot, has winding road made from the old stones, high walls on both sides of the street, some purple flowers just waving over my face. An old friend is living in such a beautiful town now and having his simple life. I am happy for him. I forget if I talked about that with him before, but it is in my heart. I can recall it, although I forgot sometimes; when I think of that, I feel my heart aching, it seems a centry passed by already.
I do not like complications, but it seems my patten. How can I change it? Somebody said that life is not easy, how happy you are depends on how well you solve the problem. I think it is ture, and it is life!
sailing
It is, no it was a beautiful day yesterday. Set the alarm clock at 7:30am, and got up around 8am. Uh, it was Saturday, wanted to sleep more, but :) had to meet up with friends for sailing. The mask had to cross a little hydraulic bridge which need to be operated by person. We called to ask the favor for opening the bridge around 9:30am which had to cause temporary trafic jam.
Sailing out to the ocean from the river took us more than an hour, it was low tide, faster than last week when we sailed out because of the current. It rained a lot these days, lucky that it was a sunny day-sailing. (it rained again the same evening:)) It is Vancouver! Lots of rain in winter, but it does not bother me too much. I just appreciate everyhing I have here.
Rigging the boat with jib-nova (hope it is the right word), which is bigger than nomal jib and can catch more wind. saw a few cute seals, oh, Forgot the dog! One friend took his dog, cute dog. The dog and the seal looked at each other, one on the boat, the other in the ocean. I am wondering if they were families thousands of years ago, because they look alike, the cute face, the nose! I am a dog lover, thinking to have one. My friend once said, why dog, so expensive, how about having a kid! What! Kid? I even have to think twice about the commitment before having a dog:) Anyway, I love kids too, just not a right time and have to find my kid's dad first.
Saw some small racing boats, listened to the sound of the water splashing when the boat is flying. Saw the lines behind the boad and knew the speed. it is really nice!
Sailing out to the ocean from the river took us more than an hour, it was low tide, faster than last week when we sailed out because of the current. It rained a lot these days, lucky that it was a sunny day-sailing. (it rained again the same evening:)) It is Vancouver! Lots of rain in winter, but it does not bother me too much. I just appreciate everyhing I have here.
Rigging the boat with jib-nova (hope it is the right word), which is bigger than nomal jib and can catch more wind. saw a few cute seals, oh, Forgot the dog! One friend took his dog, cute dog. The dog and the seal looked at each other, one on the boat, the other in the ocean. I am wondering if they were families thousands of years ago, because they look alike, the cute face, the nose! I am a dog lover, thinking to have one. My friend once said, why dog, so expensive, how about having a kid! What! Kid? I even have to think twice about the commitment before having a dog:) Anyway, I love kids too, just not a right time and have to find my kid's dad first.
Saw some small racing boats, listened to the sound of the water splashing when the boat is flying. Saw the lines behind the boad and knew the speed. it is really nice!
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