It is sad

Talked to a "friend" after new year. He asked me what I want? I told him that I want to find a guy that I love and loves me, we can get old together, he can hold my hands all the way down the road of life; and I love him all my heart and my soul, same as him.

I did not know how to tell him that I just could not "continue" or "start" with him, because in my heart, there is somebody and is a dream, so that I do not have a spot for him. It is sad. He said it is so sad for him, because he had higher expectation than me, because he thought I might be the one. I felt sorry, very sorry for the thing.

I know I could just try, try to know him, give him or myself sometime. And why not, actually I like him? But, but...too bad!

Me

Suddenly feel so sad, so down. What is wrong with me, a girl always smiling, always find a way to cheer up? Where is she? I know it is just a temperary thing, but I still feel bad about that, worse than the fact feeling sad. I am mad at myself for this.

I so need a vacation or some days off, I guess my brain works so hard that I feel so tired easily.

Wonderful world

"I see trees are green...I see skies are blue and clouds are white...The colors of the rainbow so pretty in the sky...I see friends shaking hand, say how do you do...What a wonderful world!"

What a wonderful world! But if without love, what a world it is?

Wine

I love wine since I was young. There were some beautiful Chinese poems from hundreds of years ago, talking about wine, of course Chinese wine; I read many of them and not sure if it is a reason why I like wine a lot. Hero loves wine and beauty, which is very traditional Chinese thing:)

I love wine, but I could not drink much, what a pity. I tried to make some herbal wine myself before which I believe very healthy. I made some cherry wine and blackberry wine here in Canada with a friend together before too. I love the smell and the atmasphere about wine, the colour and the taste.

The other day, I bought a book which is about how to make fruit wine yourself. I just love this book. In spring, Blueberry wine, cherry wine, peach wine, pineapple wine, rose wine, mint wine; Summer, Lychee wine, pear wine,plum wine, lavender wine, jasmine wine; in fall and winter, apple wine, strawberry wine, ginger wine; different wine different season, then you will be healty and beautiful all year long! If DIY and give it to friends, it is so cool!

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It is a softdrink, which I tried at a co-worker's place. Then I looked all over the market places, but I could not find it, out of stock! I then searched the web and talked to the importer and found it in a very special health food store that was recommended by the carrier:) It is just a softdrink, yes, I know it. Nobody coaxed me, I just love the smell and the taste of it.....

"You must really like it." "Yes, right!"

Things during Blog-Absence

It has been a while, yes, since I wrote something last time, it was last year in 2005. Hehe... It is not that I had nothing to write, but I had too much in my mind and did not know where to start. Many things happened in less than a month.

My ex-BF left Vancouver, but asking me again to move to US with him. He asked me if I want to be a housewife:) I was joking with him, "Are you going to support me?" He said, "Sure, I can; now I earned enough money." I was surprised that I was joking with him about that, also more surprised that he said so......Anyway, the good thing about us is that we are still friends, which is kind of against what people was talking about.

I went to Taboo show with my girlfriend recently, which is yearly event and it was my second time. Seeing so many private things being sold in the boothes, I did feel shy at the beginning. The neat thing about this year is that we found something very special and funny-DIY your own dildo. LOL.

Vancouver is such a beautiful and friendly city! More events are coming! Dine Our Vancouver started already, will be a more than a week long event. Friend reseaved two restaurants, one is Italian for 4 and another one is our favorite lamb from last food festival for two gals:) We love great food! Then wine festival is coming after that.

Of course, I have been heading up to the mountains skiing. However I was sick after skiing last Saturday, got a fever and sick certificate. I finally call in sick with official proof! I did not mean I could not get those proof for sick leave, I just do not usually go to a doctor:) After a few days off and did my errands during off days, I did feel better and will be better and better!

And better!